I learned a very few very valuable lesson this past week. I learned that while I’m pregnant, I should never make any big, life changing decisions. Along with that, if I don’t have a desire to do something before I’m pregnant, chances are that I probably won’t end up wanting to finish it (whether during or after my pregnancy). So how does this relate to school? Well, before this pregnancy, I had little to no desire to go back to school for a Master’s. I also had never given a thought to Business as a subject that interested me. I probably should’ve learned from my last experience with taking an “optional” class (Physiology and Developmental Biology – Independent Study through BYU, with a lab – to fulfill my last requirement to get my AA in Arabic from DLI), which I started while I was highly motivated and pregnant with Aurora, but never finished, that starting an MBA while pregnant maybe wasn’t such a great idea. I was already very apprehensive (as opposed to very excited about the prospect of learning a subject that interested me) before my online class even started on Monday. I had an appointment Monday evening with my academic advisor who told me that along with the class I was already enrolled in, there were three other prerequisite classes I should take (one of which had a lab) – and all of them within my first two semesters. Sean suggested that maybe now would be the best time to knock out the Statistics class with the lab since it would only get harder to make time for later. So I went ahead and signed up for my second class (again, with lots of apprehension). Well, to try to shorten an already long story, I ended up going to the first Statistics class before coming to the conclusion that I’d made a BIG mistake. I kept saying to myself, “What in the world was I thinking?” I don’t like math, business or statistics. Heck, I don’t even enjoy school that much even when I love the subject I’m studying. It stresses me out! What possessed me to think an MBA would be something I would enjoy doing? Anyway, when I came home from class, I told Sean I needed to find out what the drop policy was. He tried to encourage me to just finish up the first two classes and see how I felt after that, but the very next day when he came home from lunch and saw me lying melancholy on the sofa, he supported my decision to get out, and get out now. I went back to the registrar’s office here on post, told her my situation and how after attending the first class I realized I’d made a big mistake with the whole program. I told her when I came in last week, I was really just looking to get some more information about the program and costs, etc. to see if it would be something I wanted to pursue sometime in the future, but when I was told I could just fill out a few pieces of paper and either would start Monday or had to wait another two months (which wouldn’t have been a good time to start classes with how far into the pregnancy I would be), I decided to jump in and try it. Unfortunately though, it was the wrong decision. I’ll admit I definitely used being pregnant as an excuse for my rash behavior. Luckily, she was a mother as well and was very understanding. When she called up the business office to help me drop my classes, the person must’ve asked whether I was really sure I wanted to completely be dropped or not, and the lady helping me just looked and me and said, “Yeah, it’s pretty obvious. She’s just really not feeling it.” So they let me out with a small penalty (I think I got all tuition back from the online class and 80% back from the statistics class since it’s a short term and I’d already attended the first class). It could’ve been much worse, and Sean was very supportive and glad to see me return to my normal self when I came back from dropping the classes. He said if he had known I was going to have such an “allergic reaction to school” he never would’ve encouraged me to go that direction. I think that if in the future I find something that just really excites me or that I’m really passionate about, (and I’m not pregnant) my reaction will hopefully be much different. There were just so many factors going into it right now though that made it a bad choice for me. I just wish I would’ve seen that earlier. Live and learn I guess. I just hope I remember next pregnancy to not make any big life decisions if I can avoid it. 
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